20080331
Alex,
I am really crossed with someone. Someone you know. She blamed me for some discrepancies with the cashier. I would be really silly to get upset with this matter. So forget it. I shall tell you some good news instead.
The post office on the Albany road is interested to hire me for merchandising and display designing for their retail sector. Hurray! I am really excited. I wouldn't be upset even if I can't end up with the job eventually because this already proved that I am capable of getting a decent job here in the uk. Great!
I miss you more and more everyday. I wonder if it would be worst on my birthday.
No big deal.
Take care, love you,
Agnes
jazzy juby 7:30:00 上午
20080329
Alex,
I want to watch Mighty Boosh Live with you for my birthday present.
It'd be brilliant if we can watch the one in Edinburgh so I can visit around town as well!
I miss you so much!
Agnes
jazzy juby 10:30:00 上午
20080325
This is like a trap.
I have to call him everytime.
He is always late.
I have been like going through a thousand reason why I don't love him.
I love Alex.
Alex has been there always, whenever I need him.
He has been going for the extra mile.
The mile that he doesn't have to go for.
I want to avoid him.
But he is a good friend.
I just don't want to do anything that might make Alex feel uncomfortable.
Yet day after day, I am increasingly positive that he is interested in me.
I hope it is just an infatuation.
He just need a girl.
Any one.
Doesn't have to be me.
He has got loads of girls around him anyway.
This WILL fade.
This MUST end.
I don't love him.
I miss Alex.
Deadly.
jazzy juby 11:57:00 下午
20080318
We got our economics test today and it was almost incredibly easy.
The two I-think-I-am-the-smartest guys were cheating out loud behind me hoping that I would cheat along with them but too bad.
Old news: Jalal arrived on the dot looking half a sleep but with the know-it-all face.
Howard Moon was joyful as can be.
He had his weekend with his old mates from boarding school.
That's really awesome.
I miss mayde and linda and mon and weijun and all.
I told Howard I gave up on the studio flat.
He insisted again that I should go look up under the chapter staircase.
I seriously have a hunch that he left a advert there.
Or maybe I hope he did.
Kitty lied as usual.
This time claims that she has the same wage as I do.
Well, I actually can't tell if she is lying.
I can't tell if she is telling the truth anyway.
I don't think she ever did.
She claims that she'll be leaving after easter.
I guess.
All the more I am so motivated to leave.
Not that they are mean to me.
It's just that they don't pay enough.
It's just that I am always broke.
Addicted to Ace attorney again.
I don't think it will be long before I am stuck again.
Maybe I'll try previous series though.
Notes to self:
it's gonna be bloody cold again tomorrow.
jazzy juby 8:17:00 上午
20080308
I feel so crappy. Mayde didn't get good results for her As. I feel so bad because I don't know how I can help her. If going back to HK to work means that i can help her as well, I would give up everything now and do that.
I feel very uncomfortable going to derek's place because I know alex wouldn't like it. I don't want him to feel uncomfortable at all. Even if he doesn't not think that I can be his girlfriend. Whatever. I am thiking too much. I shouldn't waste my time in this. That's the whole point of everything.
And I really don't feel comfortable hanging around with derek. He is nice guy but I wouldn't do anything that makes alex feel uneasy.
jazzy juby 12:20:00 上午
20080307
Shahad tells me today that he might have a girlfriend. yes, he doesn't appear to be that kind of guy to me but you can never judge a book by it's cover.
I think I am getting too distracted with this. I am just not sure whether this relationship is a right idea for the both of us. From what I know about him now, it's a good idea but I don't know about him.
I am not ready to let go yet.
jazzy juby 10:21:00 下午
Today's almost a real crappy day. I changed my shift with Kitty so that I could go view some houses I was interested in. My favourite choice wasn't available because the agents weren't around so I looked at some other instead. I had to wait for an hour before the viewing, so I wandered around cathays to look for some other agencies.
Then there was this indian/ pakistani or whoever who came over and asked if he could talk to me. I was like whatever! I walked off and ignored this middle aged man who looked like a drunkie. Guess what? He followed me for two streets. I panicked and dashed towards a store. He stopped after he couldn't find me behind a car.
What's more? There was this gang of kids who threw little stones at me while I was walking along the street? Come to think of it I wonder why I wasn't angry. I just thought they were really silly. If my kids grow up to be like this I think I might consider throwing him out of the house.
Anyway, I was quite haapy that Alex is very involved in my shopping for houses. He said today that he called his previous landlady to check out if she still rents out the place he used to live in. He also told me today that his house is actually bought. This really makes me wonder if he really wants to live with me or it's just my own fantasy that he wants to live with me. Derek says he wouldn't be so concern about where I am living if he doesn't want to. He's kind of right. But I felt that he is concern because he cares about me. Whatever it is, I just don't want any rush.
I really need to get to sleep. I must wake up by 5 tomorrow or else I can't be at the management class. ( and guess what? Our very considerate neighbours in talybont are blasting their HiFis... WHATEVER) Great. At least I don't have to work tomorrow. I desperately need a better job. However everything goes, I must be settled with a better job latest before next year starts.
jazzy juby 7:15:00 上午
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